Somewhere Between Then and Now

 It's been a while since I've wanted to write. Life took over, kids happened, depression took over and although I love to write - none of that mattered anymore. A few days ago, I logged back into this account and reread everything I've published. Being honest, it made me so proud of myself. I started this blog after filing from divorce from my ex-wife and right when I'd met the man that I can now call my husband. I have 3 children now, 6 if you could my BBs (Bonus Babies). I have gone through so many hard lessons and today, my ass has been diagnosed with PTSD after all of the things i've had to go through. I dont know what to write or how to express myself - but what I can say is that I wont learn what that "thing" is as long as I dont start. You have to start somewhere, right?! 

I think about my past and at times, its hard to believe that I went through those things. I remember my past but its like a fog. Some things dont feel as bad and at times, I think back and wonder if it was real. How could the woman I am today have gone through so many rough situations? Like damn, really?! 

Reread and posted on 4.15.2025